Horrible Day.

I have a crazy ex. How do I always attract these people? Everyone who I have ever cared about has ended up hurting me in the worst ways.  This guy has treated me horribly for over a year now... and yet I took him back.  Only to find out that he had been saving all of my passwords, snooping in my phone and Facebook, blocking or deleting guys. What's worse, I found out that he had been recently messaging girls dirty pictures, got one of their addresses, and was going to go have sex with her. Supposedly he didn't but it doesn't even matter. Its funny, around the same time he was doing this he was also messaging me calling me sweetie and babe.

I feel so abused. Why do I always let this happen? Why do I always let myself forget these things?

My heart hurts pretty badly right now. I want to focus on my school work or go work out... but I have the worst feeling in my stomach. I can't even cry.  I don't think I will. I'm 1000x more angry that I am sad.  I really hope I never have to see or hear from him again.  I hope my life starts taking a turn for the better. I only have 3 more months here... I need to make the most of it. I can't believe I wasted 1.5 years of my college experience on him.

One day, I will meet someone who truly loves me and would never do anything to hurt me. One day. Until that day comes, I just need to focus on my life, my true friends, and my happiness. I will get through this.  I will be a better person because of this hardship.  I will never let somebody treat me this way again.