Moving On ~ Daily Log 3/11

I had a difficult time sleeping last night, but I'm feeling better today.  It is an absolutely wonderful day, and I have the world at my fingertips.  I woke up and looked in the mirror this morning and thought "Hot damn, girl, you're lookin' fine." What makes it even better is that I will be improving myself every day, so I'll look even better. I don't know why I let myself stay with such an egotistical asshole to begin with, I could get any guy I want.  What's funny is pretty much within 24 hours of finding out how truly terrible of a person my ex was, 3 different guys popped up out of nowhere.  I'm not interested in anything right now, but oh does it feel good :) Its funny because the girl my ex had been cheating with sounds like a complete idiot haha. She reminds me of one of my exes mother, the gypsy type who thinks she's all that but you knock and no one seems to be home hahaha. They deserve each other ~

I also have some great friends, and was able to go to Happy Hour last night and see Oz with them. They can always put a smile on my face, and I'm so happy that I can just focus on myself and my friends from here on out.  I don't need someone manipulative and evil in my life.  The fact that he felt like he had the right to control every little faction of my life like a puppet master is absolutely sickening.

Today I will be working on my essay, going to class, then working out with a friend of mine who offered to train me.  Life is looking up, and there's absolutely no reason why I should waste any more time on the past. :)  I love the quote in the picture above, because it is so true... I've gone through a lot of shit in my time, and even at my darkest moments when I think my life is over, I keep living.  And within weeks or sometimes months, I'm smiling and enjoying life again.  Within years, I have nearly forgotten all of the horrible shit I've went through.  This is a phase in my life that I have to, and will, get over, and I will be a better person because of it.

Breakfast

• Hashbrowns w/ 1 Fried Egg, 1/2 Avocado, & Sour Cream

Lunch

• 2 Pink Oranges
• Pear Chobani Greek Yogurt

Workout

• "Maximize Your Assets" Fitness Class

Dinner

• Broiled Swai w/ Brown Rice and Steam Zucchini, Asparagus, Spinach, & Onion

Drinks

• 1 cup of coffee 
• 6 cups of water (& counting)
• 1 glass of [yellow tail] Shiraz - Cabernet (see my review here)

"What Went Well" Exercise
1.  Despite not sleeping well, I feel very refreshed and invigorated.

• Why did this happen? I took a good hard look at my life and realized there's no reason to mourn over the past, but rather to focus on the bright future ahead.
• How can I make this happen more?  Focus on the good things in life and recognize when history begins repeating itself.

2.  I am free of manipulation.

• Why did this happen? Because I found out what was happening, and I refused to let it happen anymore.
• How can I make this happen more? Recognize when these things happen, and don't just let it go.  Don't make time in your life for people who just use and control you.  Realize that its better to be alone than to be in the company of sick people.

3. I finished a full rough draft of my paper.

• Why did this happen? I got myself some coffee and forced myself to write it out, knowing that the process of revision and finishing this paper will be a lot easier tonight and tomorrow because of it.
• How can I make this happen more? Suck it up, erase all distractions, and provide myself a gameplan and rewards for achieving different milestones in my work.