Better Days ~ Daily Log 5/22

Today has been a much better day.  I found inspiration from readings and solace from friends, and I realized that there's no reason to allow someone from the past to bring you down.  People who say terrible things about you and try to tear your self-image apart don't deserve your attention at any point in your life.  As I've mentioned, I got out of a troubled relationship... and the break-up seemed to last for a lifetime.  I'm not going to say that either of us are or were bad people, but we definitely both made mistakes.  The thing is, at one point we truly loved each other.  And in those moments, life was bliss.  Even though the relationship is over and the pain lingers sometimes, there is absolutely no reason to deny that there was something there that brought both of us happiness, even for a moment or two.  There is no reason to try and bring pain to the other... every person is just trying to live their life the best way that they know how.  I accept the past, I accept who I am, and I accept that I was hurt beyond belief by someone who I thought cared about me.  I forgive him, and I can finally move on from the pain.  I wish him the best in everything.  Yesterday marked the end of a chapter, and the beginning of a new one.

I had an absolutely amazing ballroom dancing class today! Before the class begins, the instructors put on music so that the students can freestyle it if they so choose.  Today, I got there early and was asked to dance to a swing song.  Unfortunately I had missed the last class on swing so I didn't know how to do some of the fancier moves.  He assured me it was fine and to "trust him."  He was the best lead I have ever had, and it was one of the most fun and thrilling experiences I've had in the class!  A lot of the leads in the beginner classes don't really give good leads and you're (as a follow) left guessing as to which move you're supposed to do next.  This was much different - every single motion he made had a purpose, and it directed me towards the move I was supposed to do.  He led me in swing through the whole song, doing twirl after twirl, turn after turn, move after move effortlessly... At no point did I feel like I didn't know what I was doing.  It felt like how I always imagined ballroom would be - fluid, exciting, and fun! I was so involved in the dance that not once did I look around awkwardly to see what moves the other people were doing.  I feel very blessed to have had the experience, and I look forward to hopefully continuing ballroom even after I graduate!  I recommend everyone step out of their comfort zone and try something new :) Never be afraid.

Breakfast

• Hashbrowns w/ 1 Fried Egg, 1/4 Avocado, & Sour Cream

Mini-Workout

• 1 hour Ballroom Dancing

Snack

• Strawberry Banana Greek Yogurt
• Apple

Dinner

• Chicken & Vegetable Stuffed Bell Peppers 

Drinks

• 1 cup of coffee
• 4 cups of black tea
• 3 cups of green tea
• 6 cups of water
• 1 glass of wine