Sometimes life throws you for a loop. It is your choice whether to try hopelessly to fight it and get lost and disoriented or to lean into it and embrace the change. As hard as it is, I'm going to try and embrace this. This entire year I've been dreading graduation... It terrifies me that most of my friends will be moving away and that I might have to move back to my hometown. I held onto this hope that my contract with one of my current jobs would be extended until September so that I'd at least have a couple more months to embrace this beautiful town and figure out what to do next. I wanted this so badly that I tried not to think about what I'd do if my contract wasn't extended.
Today I found out that it wasn't. After I graduate mid-June, I lose the job that pays for my apartment which means that I will most likely have to also quit my other job since I won't be able to afford rent here. I'm trying to remain positive but to be honest I am a little devastated. However, this will force me to start evaluating all of my options for after graduation and hopefully come up with something worthwhile. It'll be goodbye to all of the friends I have made here :( I just have to trust that I can handle anything and I will find my groove wherever I end up.
And now I really need to take advantage of every moment here with my friends for this next month and a half.
Besides that, today has been a long and stressful day. I had a midterm today at 2pm for Italian Culture that I had procrastinated studying on so I spent a couple hours last night and woke up early this morning to study for it. I also had a meeting at 11. I'm just glad its over with now and I have some time to myself to figure everything out. I have some articles and essays to write, plus the gym, so hopefully that'll keep me busy enough to keep my mind off of negativity.
"People walk a tightrope on a razor's edge,
carrying their hurt and hatred and weapons.
It could be a bomb, or a bullet, or a pen,
OR a thought, or a word, or a sentence.
There ain't no reason things are this way,
It's how they've always been and they intend to stay.
I can't explain why we live this way...
We do it every day.
But love will come set me free.
Love will come set me free, I do believe.
Love will come set me free, I know it will.
Love will come set me free, yes."
Breakfast- Hashbrowns w/ 1 Fried Egg, 1/4 Avocado, & Sour Cream
- Pomegranate Chobani Greek Yogurt
- Salad w/ Spicy Chicken, Tomato, 1/2 Avocado, Cucumber, Red Onion, & Sour Cream
- 1 min run (6 mph), 2 min power-walk (4 mph), 7x
- 90 Jumping Jacks
- 20 Tricep Dips
- 20 Sit-ups
- 30 Sec Plank, 4x
- 30 Sec Alternating Plank
- 80 Crunches
- 10 Oblique Crunches (each side)
- 20 Standing Calf Raises
- 3 Sets of 15 Seated Low Rows, 40 lbs
- Salad w/ Lemon Chicken
- 4.5 cups of coffee
- 7 cups of water
- 2.5 cups of black tea
- 2.5 cups of green tea
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