Frustrations ~ Daily Log 2/4

Overall, today has been a really sucky day. Those days happen. I'm just doing my best to pull through everything and convince myself that no matter what happens, I will be okay.  I didn't have work today, but I had 2 classes. Coincidentally, in both of them the teachers decided just to do a repeat lecture and act as if it was new material.  I kept thinking I was crazy, and flipped back and forth between all of my notes and realized that the PowerPoint material was the same, word for word. Fun.

But that's not what made it so bad... My mother had been bothering me all day about changing my name in my school records so that I'd graduate with her last name, not my father's (gotta love divorce).  I told her that the school required that I provide documentation, such as a government ID, proving that it was my legal name (which its not).  She began flipping out on me, and is now threatening to no longer help me out with tuition (we each usually pay half).

My family makes my life so hard... and its hard to look around and see so many people around me with such beautiful families.  During breaks, everyone goes back home excitedly to see their families... I usually stay near the University.  I treat my friends as my family, and it scares me to death to think that once we graduate, they're all moving away...

Oh and as I'm typing this, a glass just fell off my counter and shattered -_-

But enough of that. I always pull through.

Breakfast

• Chobani Peach Greek Yogurt

Lunch

• Basil Pesto Baked Tilapia
• Sauteed Zucchini and Yellow Squash
• Baked Potato with Sour Cream

Pre-Workout Meal

• Chobani Peach Greek Yogurt
• String Cheese

Workout

• "Maximize Your Assets" Fitness Class, with an emphasis on working the back muscles, abs, and thighs

Post-Workout Meal

• Breaded Chicken with Paprika and Chili Powder
• I know this seems like a random combination, but I was literally licking my plate... It turned out that unexpectedly good.
• Salad

Water Intake

• 9 cups so far :)

"What Went Well" Exercise
1.  I was able to speak to an old friend from high school and a cousin that I haven't spoken to in years.

• Why did this happen? I was honest on Facebook (not complain-ey), and had some people reach out to me.  Both of them were empathetic and helped me feel better about things, and it was nice hearing from people who I have really missed. It helped me remember that there are people who care. 

2.  I cooked a balanced meal with for lunch instead of making the frozen burrito I was craving.

• Why did this happen? I reached for the burrito in the freezer and felt instantly guilty. I have to admit, knowing that I was going to log in today made me re-evaluate my options.

3.  I started an application for a potential position that would help me stay where I am once I graduate instead of moving back home.

• Why did this happen? Last week, one of my supervisors told me about the position and enthusiastically said I'd be great at it. I don't know how good my chances are, but I figure I might as well try and have the option!